I got stood up after finally getting out of my comfort zone

Sorry for the long post, just need to get this out before I break. I have been dealing with a lot lately from moving far from friends and family to losing my job. So I am really deep in a hole right now.One day while shopping for food at a grocery store, I met a girl while standing in line to checkout (we'll call her Ashley). We were waiting for the person in front of us who was having issues with payment, so I brought up the courage and asked her what she was planning to make for dinner that night. Ashley was surprised, but kindly responded with her plans which surprisingly were similar to mine so I joked about it. She laughed and told me she loves to cook and experiment with new recipes. Normally I don't flirt with girls on purpose, but I thought I need to start making at least some new friends. I asked her if she would like to cook with me sometime, maybe share some recipes. In my head I thought this may be creepy, so I added in "meals with company always taste better." Ashley agreed and we exchanged phone numbers.I texted her when I got home asking if Saturday night would be a good time to cook together. She said yes and then I asked her which kitchen she would prefer to use, mine or hers? She said she would prefer it at my (OP) place. This began my very stressed week of preparing my apartment and my refrigerator for a 2nd person to cook in the kitchen as well as preparing my heart.Well the day finally came...I got dressed nicely, but not too nice since we were cooking. The fridge was stocked and the apartment was cleaned top to bottom. I even bought flowers and a vase to give my bare apartment some color. Night approaches and I am nervous as can be. I never cooked with anyone before and I actually never had anyone over to my place other than my parents. Time approached and she didn't show...waited an extra hour and nothing...finally texted her asking if everything was alright. Her response: "Who is this?" I double checked I texted the same number I have been since she gave it to me. We agreed on date and time...everything was in order. She never said anything about being unable to make it. The fact that she didn't know who I was tells me she deleted the messages/ my number.I ended up cooking by myself, literally and emotionally cutting onions. via /r/offmychest https://ift.tt/36QyOu6