Relapsed after 10 days

Today after 10 days. I replapsed, while being home alone for 6 hours. At first I recieted alot of ayats and tried my best it was hard. The urges were soo strong. It wasn't like this before I used to go good until one day I was feeling extremes desires and may have listened to a subliminal or two to increase my desires. :"( May Allah forgive me and all of us.So while home alone whilst resisting I felt pressure in my head n relapsedI am ashamed of myself.So now to undo the previous subs I may have listened to I am planning to listen to flush ones and ones for more self control. All night. I want my dopamine receptors to heal (Tears)You see before once what happened was I wasn't feeling any urges and thought something was wrong and watched.And any time I have ever relapsed I watched for less than a minute. Just minute or something. Anyways now that I saw one of those Ted talk and all I feel even more disgusted. I am happy tho that during this relapse I did not watch P. I aim to completely avoid any forms of P, avoid, visual and literary. I want to also avoid any self stimuli for atleast 3 months (as 3 months is an easier goal).I have however noticed a pattern. The more light is in the room the more impossible it is for me to engage in such activity. As nature light gives me more strength. However during the past 2 years I haven't engaged in PMO regularly but I need to stop entirely."D2 receptor building activities into the day while undertaking the nofap challenge.These activities include reading any book or novel you fancy, learning or playing musical instruments, listening to music, cooking or learning to cook a new recipe, learning a new language, going out and socializing more and so on." (Based on an article)I was also thinking, you know how it says in our religion that people of hellfire if they were sent back they would do the same, perhaps it also because they would have had an addiction. Also you know how some very successful people who avoided PMO, like this listAnd I was thinking you know how in Islam those who do good in this life (non Muslims) are rewarded in this life and we can be rewarded in both (mostly next). Well self control is the biggest form of struggle.As for what I find very interesting is Steve Jobs participated in NoFap and you know what his last words were? "Oh wow, oh wow, oh Wow" reference via /r/MuslimNoFap https://ift.tt/2GUIOrI