Haven't posted much so I'll do my best to keep this fluid. So I'm currently in my junior year of college and everything going fine till around February when I was introduced to two chicks who live in my building. We have known of each other for a year now, just never talked, and got connected through one of my roommates. One of them I have been extremely attracted to since seeing her, but it was always just the hot chick in my class. To understand the dynamic, we're both very upfront people and just relatively honest about things, and don't really like to piddle around (or at least that's how I've experienced her as) Now within the first week of hanging out, we get super close, literally and figuratively. One of the many hang ups, as expected, is that she has a boyfriend of 2-3 years. Some insight into their relationship, they barely text/snapchat/talk, she sees him barely every week or two (he's a student too, so its not like a long distance thing), and overall you'd never guess that they'd be a couple. So with all of this in mind, I had no clue why she was with him, and with us getting so close I let myself fall for her without considering the consequences. I won't get sappy with it, but over all my other relationships, I've never enjoyed someone's company quite as much as hers, and I started to grow dependent on it. So into the second week of talking we continue to really hit it off and one night we go to a party (recipe for disaster). Late into the night she starts saying things that really imply that she wants to be with me, but the only thing stopping her is that she'd feel too bad about breaking up with her current Bf, since he helped her get through some shit. It was never the fact that she loved him or super liked him. So with all of this in mind, I am thinking just give it some time, don't get pushy and just be nice and supportive for her. After a week from that party she had stopped talking to me as much, so I was straight up with her and asked if there was a problem as to why she backed up a bit, fully expecting an upfront response as that's who she is. I got answer to the tune of "that's just me, no need to worry." From the short period we'd known each other I had no reason to believe she'd be lying, so I moved on assuming nothing's wrong. Fast forward to the present (~7 weeks) and it's a constant fluctuation of interest to nothing, which as I'm sure many of you know, is absolute hell. So I'm thinking something did In fact happen after that one night, that she wasn't willing to tell me. Now here's the part that's also really playing into this. She and the small friend group we've developed has really been a massive help to my academics and whatnot. I've always studied alone or when I've tried to do it in groups it just never feels helpful. I'm just super comfortable around her and the group so it makes getting through day-to-day college shit so much better. So it becomes a two-fold thing in my mind where I so badly want to be with her on an emotional level, but I also need to be around her and the group just to continue going through school without feeling like a massive weight is on me. I know the usual response on here is "plenty of fish in the sea," and that's definitely true, but it's hard to think like that for me given all the circumstances, and breaking away from this person would effect me in more ways than just I can no longer talk to them.If you got through that, props. This entire thing has been doing my head in for much longer than is healthy, so thank you in advance for any help. via /r/relationship_advice https://ift.tt/2HhfHR8
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