I looked into my partner's phone and found out he is in touch with his Tinder "date"

I knew my husband is messaging someone through messenger. Somehow, I felt like it's the woman from Tinder that he has been in touch with but you know..I was not 100% sure if it's her or someone else.He met her on Tinder I think maybe three years ago and talked about her a lot while we were dating (I met him on an app as well and we dated two years before we got married).But they never physically met since she lives on the other side of States so they just talk through messanger. I mean...a lot! At the beggining of our relationship he said he is not in touch with her anymore..Well, since his phone always "beeps" in the evenings for months now and he also lied to me so many times in our marriage, I just felt he would not be honest if I asked him who he is texting to or who is texting him. I am pretty sure he would not tell the truth.So I did a terrible thing that I am not proud of at all. I looked into his phone. And I found her name on top of all the messages, so he's been in touch with her currently. I did not have that much time to read all of them, because I would be reading it until next month but there were thousands of loooooooong messages. What I've noticed that my husband and the woman seem to be really close since they talk about life, relationships, first kisses, their feelings, thwir problems, they share recipes and ideas about cooking, weekend plans and so on..He never told me they are still talking to each other and it feels like he is hiding it from me.I feel bad about crossing this line and going through some of his messages. But - I am sure that I could never be sure without it. As I know him he would lie to me.He hurt me so many times in our marriage (what I know he never cheated, but he lied so many times and he also keeps so many secrets that I usually find out. Like smoking weed or hiding his ecigaret, hiding bottles and lying about drinking). I really lost my trust in him. I know I broke his trust as well, but I am not in touch with anyone from Tinder at all! Why does he need to talk to her while he is barely talking to me? I feel like he is emotionally cheating on me for months now. With a Tinder "online date"... I know they can be "just" friends, but why he never mentioned they are in touch again? I don't know. I am I too crazy about this? Maybe I am..Don't know if I should tell him that I know..or what I did. I feel like I can't handle those secrets anymore... via /r/Marriage https://ift.tt/31XcNc9